Out of the purple

I must admit, I have been off colour for the past month or two. Guess am going through one of those 'existential/relalizational' phases of life. Everything seems bland, boring and banal. Trying to come to terms with my new found boredom.

I am, as usual, confused from the last couple weeks. Guess, I'll never get over bewildering over 'appraisal/feedback' thingie. I've always believed the whole thing to be a scam.Though, it is much better at my current company, I just think we Indians are by default to polite to give honest feedback to each other. Me, guilty as charged.

I've been doing a lousy job in my current project. I know that. More out of self-blocking-out than lack of skill or interestingness of the project. A lo has been happening in last 6 months or so and have not been able to think straight. I hope to get back on track before other people realize this :-D .

Been reading an interesting book - Cryptonomicon (Neal Stephenson) . It's a mishmash of everything nerd. World war, cryptography - both old and new, guns, espionage, hacking, phreaking... Loving the book till now. It's a huge tome. At a hulking 1100 pages, it's the biggest piece of bound paper I've read (out of college text-books. Wait. technically, you have to read a book from cover to cover, right, to actually read it? Cryptonomicon wins.). It has quite a bit of geeky, tounge in cheek humour and also has it's share of gore with sharks and cannibals and bombs and huge guns. The book, somehow felt very masculine. Something that panders to the male geekdom. But, then it is written well enough to be more than that and some across as somehing I'll refer to a friend or two.